Back to society

After my fairly uneventful stay in the VA hospital, I was told I could leave. Now I had to find a place to live, which I did in San Jose I found a home that catered to disabled people. This was a place where your meals were cooked and any help you needed was available. While at the VA I started smoking again (a very bad habit), but I* was looking to do something to elevate the boredom. With my arms frozen at the elbows this became a challenge. I found a telescopic cigarette holder that expanded to about two feet, which enabled me to smoke again. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t such a good a problem solver. So here I was in a new home having furnished my room with a hospital bed, new TV and VCR and bored to death. I could not walk easily, which limited my moving around. I became so depressed about my situation that I forced myself to walk three blocks to a store (not an easy thing to do). I then bought myself a bottle of rum to ease my boredom. Not the smartest decision I ever made. I was incredibly depressed and lonely. I lost my girlfriend and I was trapped in an impossible situation and feeling very lonely. I had to get out of this situation, but I had not figured out what to do. At least while I was there I learned how to use the kitchen and was able to cook for myself, which motivated me to move into a room in a house that I could try and regain some self-support on my own again. This turned out to be a crazy situation, which I’ll talk about tomorrow.