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I started to think in terms of doing things for myself, like feeding myself and controlling what was happening to me. Only I wasn't very successful in attempting to do things for myself, other than being able to feed myself. I wanted to do other things, like being able to go to the bathroom by myself, but that was just one of many things I couldn't do at the time. When you can no longer clean yourself, because you are unable to do so, and because when the natural functions of a human are compromised they are lost when you can no longer take care of yourself. This is a very frustrating feeling. If you cannot accept your dilemma and when you understand that things are completely out of your control, then you are doomed to frustration. I just decided I could not do anything about what was going on with me, and by accepting my situation was the only positive thing I could do. Because I was trapped in a difficult situation, I had to accept the way things were. I hated this arrangement, but being trapped in a hospital bed left me with no other alternatives.